The 3 Fs

Family, Friends and Festivities. 

I'd had 2 weeks annual leave booked for months in advance and I was really looking forward to catching up with all my family and friends back home. I was flying home for my brother's wedding, and as it was so close to Christmas I extended my stay. But the 3 Fs proved to be a little bit too much for me this year, and it resulted in me bursting into tears on Christmas Eve, hiding in my room and packing my bags. Some people aren't that shocked when they hear that, as Family Melodramas are the norm in their households...but not mine. This was a very unusual occasion. I guess I was a bit overtired and suffering the Pre-Menstrual Shits. That's also quite unusual for me, as my normal cycle doesn't usually throw me around like that. The thing is, when things like that happen, a little bell goes off in the back of my mind and I think "That's not normal! Could I be pregnant?" But then a bigger bell gongs at the front of my mind and says "Uh, no! Of course you're not! You would KNOW if you were!"

Meh! If I'm not this month, it will happen another month. I'm not even sure if I would know if I was pregnant. I can imagine myself being one of those urban myths, where I eat a bad hot dog and go to the toilet with gastro and come out 5 kgs lighter and a crying baby in my arms....hhmm, if only it was that easy...

Happy New Year!

During my travels home, I visited a friend who foretold my fortunes with runes and a crystal pendant on a chain. This was all completely new to me, but I've always been open to the concept of finding answers from divine force (other than religion).

So, my friend cast her runes and asked if I would fall pregnant in 2012. She picked out 3 runes which explained my past, present and future. My past showed there were too many people offering conflicting advice, which made it hard for me to make clear decisions. I needed to let go of events that were out of my control, but there would be an element of luck involved! There would be an unplanned event and a big change in the future. I can't remember exactly what it said, but it mentioned changes in fertility. Well it was pretty spot on talking about the past, so it was making me quite optimistic.

Then we asked the runes if I would fall pregnant within the next 6 months, and it indicated that big changes were happening (which is true, as we were moving back to the Eastern states). There will be changes in the family with the arrival of a new child. And there would be  new responsibilities for me, with a question of a new career (that got me interested as well, as I've currently been questioning what my next step in career will be) My message for the future was to "Grab the Bull by the Horns!"

Note to self. Keep an eye out for any fortuitous Bull Horns that may come my way.

She also asked her crystal if I would have a baby. The crystal hung from a chain held between her thumb and forefinger of her left hand and it sat in the open palm of her right hand. She asked the question and slowly lifted it out of her palm. It settled itself and became quite still...and then it just started swinging around in circles. If it swings in a certain direction, it meant yes...and it said yes! And yes, we tested it by asking different questions, but it would always say yes to that question. There was no tricking the crystal!

It made me feel quite optimistic for the new year. I'm not sure how it will happen, but I'm confident it will. It was VERY hard for me not to have control over my situation at all, but I think I am learning to let go a little bit.

Here's to a positive new year!